SLEEP

i usually sleep pretty late no matter if i wake up early. That's usually because i end up taking like 3 hour naps mid day... but besides that i usually stay up because i end fixating on something I've seen on TikTok such as this. It sucks that when i wanna use something it ends up not working lol you might know what I'm talking about so i saw someone say that i should use this instead. I'm a pretty bad writer so bad that i wont even try to write an essay for school. Its usually because i can think of something but not know how to express them in words and its sooo much worse when im talking to someone i dont really know so then i sound like a complete idiot but in reality im really smart. I remember in elementary school i was always praised for being one of the top of my class but something i wasnt praised for was the amount i used to speak to people. I was a yapper. WELP that all changed right after covid now i have social anxiety, its getting better tho. In middle school id never ask for help on anything no matter how much i needed it, for example my mom that doesnt speak english would want me to ask someone where something is in store and i would say that i would find it then she'd force me to ask and my heart would race so fastt and id stutter and be too quiet then id be embarrassed and start sweating. And id also ask my brothers to order for me at restaurants. Now it isnt that bad ill ask for help and order myself tho i do have a hard time talking to people my age but i do think im getting better(geeked emoticon)(theres probably a way to do that i bet but i havent got there). I have a lot more to say but people dont really like to read so i should keep it short.