uh well...

soo, i think i havent explained the WHOLE story with that guy in my class. Ive had a crush on him since like october idk but he told me he had a girlfriend. i SWEARR that i tried to forget abt him but do you know how difficult it is to stop crushing on a boy at that age ? but i can promise i didnt try anything. anyways recently, like yesterday, i heard him talk abt his gf so i was like "hes still with her so thats my final reason to give up on him" (bc before i wasnt sure he was still with her since everyone told me he was single) so RN im TRYING to forget abt him yk. EXCEPT THAT THE UNIVERSE IS AGAINST ME. today in class i tried ignoring him the best i could

1st in english: the teacher suddenly asked me a question but since i wasnt listening i couldnt answer properly and the guy (my old crush, stay focused) laughed. Usually id look at him especially since hes behind me but THIS TIME i made sure not to even tho he laughed multiple times and even tried to give me the answers

2nd in technology: i was one of the firsts to enter the classroom so i immediately went to sit at the back BUT FOR SOME REASONS, instead of sitting behind his friends like usually who were literally A ROW NEXT TO US mind you, he decided to sit IN FRONT OF ME with a girl (usually hes with his friend but he wasnt here tday). I felt cursed ngl but i didnt pay attention to him and went to clean my bag bc it had hot chocolate on it idk why whatever. this nga managed to TURN AROUND AND ASK ME "why are you cleaning your bag?" WHAT KIND OF QUESTION IS THAT??? i tried answering coldly and i said "bc its dirty" and i didnt look at him either. soo after that during the class i tried my best not to talk to him but he managed to communicate with me in ANY WAY POSSIBLE. my friend threw my packet of tissues at him and he decided to KEEP IT?? (dw i got it back) but thats not the worse he kept asking if i was the one who threw it when my friend ADMITTED IT WAS HER. tbh i was joking sometimes with him too but i wasnt the one who started the conversation. like my friend would do a joke about him and id laugh and add to it thats all

idk whats happening hes acting so weird these days hes always looking at me and trying to interact with me I DONT UNDERSTAND. plus i did a tarot reading asking abt our relationship and it said "theres an obstacle between yall so you guys need time" so my brain immediately tells itself "theres still a chane" BUT NOOO I GOTTA FORGET ABOUT HIMMM HES TAKEN. whatever, his friend's kinda cute tho