idk some bs

I've been raised in a family where other emotions other than joy are forbidden. I'm not even exaggerating; I got scolded just for crying. 

It's hard for me because I'm naturally a very sensitive and empathetic person, which sucks a lot. Like, when someone (anyone) says something rude, I start getting sad, and it's annoying because almost everyone in the world is rude. I can't keep getting sad about some bs people say.

So I’m just bottling everything I have. What else can I do? lol

edit: why the hell am I supposed to be responsible for taking care of my niece? I'm not the mother or father. It shouldn't be on me to play with or feed my niece 24/7 btw. I'm so stressed, I can't even hang out with my friends or play games with them.