Sad

Fuck I'm so sad and lonely and trying really hard to stay clean and everyone else around seems like they are have a great time hanging out with there bf, new friends and shit. And I feel like I'm just stuck in the same loop of loneliness cause nobody really cares and of course I don't want to see them suffer or be sad I just wish people weren't fake to me and that I  was joining in of the fun to exploring life but no I'm stuck loop with all this I don't even fucking know inside me. I don't know what to do. 

Sorry if this is cringe or I sound pickme I suck at typing 

Thanks if u read