im tired of begin an teenage

• I am tired of life, it is very boring, not even my friends make me feel good anymore, I think I will not continue like this anymore, I don't want to die but living is boring and absurd, everything scares me, I can only go out of the house because they don't let me, I can't go to my school alone, they don't let me, I can't go out with friends and take a walk, they don't let me, everything is complete garbage.

I don't want to change my life, you can't anyway, everything is boring, nothing excites me, I wish it all would end already, but without dying