Untitled, like us.

Untitled, like us.

do i ever cross your mind?

you cross mine all the time

well— not always.

just sometimes.

not sometimes.

just those times.

i can live on my own

but it’s easier when you’re near

that memory of you holding me

calming my fear, easing my tears

it’s like a ghost crowding me

right where you used to be

the funny part is—

we never met

not here

not near

always through a screen

but i could swear

i felt you here

right there

crying in the shower

drowning in water and heat

steam and tears

waiting for your reply

i could’ve traveled through the air

9 steps out of my bed

4 out of my room

2 out of my head

none to your bed

i could never be there

once again

i gotta say

i know nothing about you.

i don’t know how to say your name

i swear it’s an honest mistake

i know your birthday is in January

i just don’t know the date

and i know, for some reason,

you got your granddad’s last name

i know you might not like your nose

you always covered it in pictures you sent

you laugh at stupid jokes

and call me stupid names

but i liked your stupid jokes

and i liked that stupid name

for some reason you found me pretty

and you made me feel it, believe it

but nothing lasts forever

i should’ve known the ending

but let’s see how much i can remember

your accent was thick

not unexpected

and the sound you made while talking—

that quiet little uh, when you started rambling

some memories go darker

that bloody band-aid

you said it happened at work

“just a small cut”

but it didn’t, did it

i watched through a shaky video

through a blurry picture

the scars on your wrists

match mine with ease

and maybe always will

it’s twisted, i guess

i never met you

but i felt like i did

no matter what anyone says

it was through a screen

but still—

you made me feel

love

longing

a lasting crush

comfort

and i’ll always thank you for that

the guy whose name

i can’t say right