Being an Aviodant and also Anxious attachement

Being fearful-avoidant

Nobody really talks about how hard being an anxious and avoidant attahmet person aswell. Sometimes I just want to cling to them till everthing becomes better, but other times, i just want them to leave me alone till the end of time. I always feel so stupid. Like Im the problem and I should just shut my mouth, but other days I just at help but b*tch and mo*n about the smallest things. I just cant wait forever