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Like, I feel so disappointed, but ik my parents are more disappointed. idk.I don't really care about marks some days, but when I see myself getting 2nd, it's just bitter. because im not worthy of anything anymore. love? no. I had one job: to get 1st position. But I didn't. No matter how much I try to hide my stupidity, at last it is always revealed.
im really not worthy of anything if I couldn't do the one thing that was given to me. Yeah, like okay, I feel numb and lost, and I can't talk about this to anyone. Nobody will read this. That's why im talking here. 2nd position is truly, truly the worst. im not perfect. im not kind. I get jealous, extremely jealous when I see others get better than me. But what can I do? It is my fault for not trying harder. And another bad thing is that im an introvert. So in my parents' eyes, im stupid in studies AND behaviour. I don't want to talk to people.I don'tt want people to knoI i got 2nd. I don't want to receive the trophy. They wouldn't understand it. I just got scolded for not going myself to the stage and getting it. they had to go and ask for me to go to stage. yeah, so its like im cursed with being this useless creature dwelling in her room forever.
got 2nd position in class
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xxX_LunaIsCool_Xxx
It's easy to think that bronze is the lowest value, because after a competition we only see the first tree on the podium, but you got to remember those are the first three. The best of all the competition.
You did great, and you shouldn't give yourself such a hard time.
Beside, you didn't even get bronze.
You came second, that's silver baby
Herbert Pocket
You got 2nd, how is that bad? Who cares if your parents are dissapointed, they dont know the half of it.
i'd like to think like that too. But i can't. they are disappointed, i know. but most of all, i feel disappointed by myself. its my fault but yeah, i had to tell SOMEONE so i wrote it here
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