Problems of the current LGBTQIA+ Community

I am a stud who loves other studs, butches and masc. The problem is that none of them ever seem to love, let alone like, me back. Everyone is allowed to have a preference, but it feels like that other masc4masc only exist on the internet or in an entirely different country/state from you.

Another problem I have is the internal homophobia that's projected onto those who have a sexual and romantic preference that are similar to mine. If you don't know, there's this everlasting thorn in the queer community's side, called 'Heteronormality'. Don't believe me? Look up #lesbiancouple on any social media site and see what pops up first. Usually, it's a fem and a masc or a fem and a fem.  But rarely is it ever masc on masc. 

In the current waves, there is the invisible need to uphold a traditional, conservative 'hetero-ness' in a community that was made to reject such things. It's pushed onto others a create another wave of internalized homophobia that poisons us. Remember how the community reacted to lesboys when the term and those who aligned with the identity resurfaced? I do, and I sadly agreed with it for a short period of time.

Inside the closet, there is another, much smaller, closet. You've come out to the world and so on, but there's that little part of you that's still very much scared. 

The closet is a terrible place to die.