First of all, this is more my perspective on my life than on loneliness itself, I don't suffer from it, because thank God I never got to that point, but sometimes I think if things were different. By "being alone" I mean the fact that sometimes my own company is much better than striving to meet someone new, even if it's for a friendship or a relationship. In the case of friendship ALL my friends always had the initiative to talk to me first, I believe I never came to talk to become friends but I never needed it either.
For dating the situation is different, I only dated once and it was with a girl I met at Yubu, it was a good relationship but it lasted little (or a lot depending on your point of view), about 7 months more or less, and both before and after that my attitude with girls that I found attractive was always the same of not taking the initiative, not out of fear or timidity but out of lack of will, for me talking to strangers without a real need or with the intention of meeting someone only makes me uncomfortable and frustrated I think, it's kind of hard to describe, but it's basically the feeling of not wanting to do it at all and stops right away.
I have no idea how to change that, so I just accepted it as part of me and never saw it as a bad thing. Every time I think about the opportunities I miss out on by not meeting new people I just think "meh, it's not worth it anyway". I think the only real effect of this is just difficulty in starting dating, but it's not like that's a problem for me right now.
What do you guys think?
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DJ Yotsuba
Just keep being yourself
Keerfloey
You're so meeeeeeeee, and it's ok lol