just some head stuff for the ol profile

how i feel as of late..all will be over soon..been doing alot of writing but not on computer so. ive been avoiding devices a bit theyre black cubes thats the “matrix” of saturn in my eyes but whatever nothings real anyway. so why does it matter

been going through some stuff up in my head not my head not anything physical tis the season im tired sleepy irritable and my “mind” has just been running nonstop i dont feel like myself im totally different i feel disconnected from my body which THAT part isnt exactly good even though the physical aint real the bodys an important temple yk 

also my friend i have a feeling something happened but i could just be paranoid because im worried for her.. in a way… i dont give a shit what people do with THEIR physical life as long as theyre ready for what comes after. i feel like shes not because shed call me crazy but maybe so cuz we always spoke in a joking manner. i dont want people to go killing themselves and just walking right into the light NOT KNOWING theyre coming right back and theyll forget everythinf and repeat the cycle till they learn.

i have a different view of death than alot of peers yk not all of them but alot. its ur choice go ahead die but again just be prepared be ready. if its only for the purpose of exiting ur temporarily pitiful non existence cuz u think this moments pretty bad then thats just stupid ur here for a reason even if oo dont seem like jt im so depressed and sad wahh yeah whatever. thats what ur conditioned to think,until u again learn a bit u dont know true happiness OR sadness but then let go of those emotions and be free.. im not at the end either but im sure free

thats why i feel emotional in a way

but again alot of “people” on this planet are npcs put here to learn slash dont have a soul or are just different species. with souls. know more maybe know less idk.

im always up in the clouds (no correlation to last bulletin i think drugs just help not BRING the “experience” to you) and my face just looks dumbfounded mouth hanging open eyes wide open and maybe thats why people think im a bit special in the head

and so what if im special nobodys special were all equal

im not a mouth breather you know a while ago i wouldve said i hate mouth breathers but as we quantum leap i cant bring myself to say i hate anything not even like umm eating poop i cant even say i hate the “elite” (just an example i dont see them as the BIG people in charge. i dont hate reptilian cuz i see them as yk they dont comprehend what we percieve as evil. theyre just lower vibration theyre us in different stages so.)

on THAT note ive been so tired and sleepy and irritable (while not being able to say i even hate anything) like everythings picking on me its a bit annoying but its like a fly itll go away and all be better

gotta balance everything to learn.. cant be too optimistic too pessimistic too up in the clouds too down on the ground.. wow i should be a rapper.. ok ill leave… i feel like i have a balance between most things right now im just 1. too judgemental but ive actually been improving alot lately and 2. again body and mind and soul/spirit again i think ive been doing a bit better lately too

on a different note

mind schizophrenics are only seen as such (crazy) cuz they see past just the physical plane and the big guys dont like that and they say hey be scared of what u see hey everyone else be scared of what he sees! and irs just a retard-o-cycle. im not schizophrenic its just something related to yk hearing and seeing stuff.

if alot of them saw it in healthy ways it wouldnt be ooo scary mysterious MENTAL disorder!!!!

bulletins into a blog so. i dont usually “archive” my bulletins into blogs but i felt like it today… this blog isnt very important id just like to look back in the future..