I love my plants

I have always loved gardening and plant keeping. Ever since i can remember. It's a hobby i find myself returning to every time i feel down. And so far, it has always helped me. In 2020-2022 during the pandemic, i wasn't really locked inside cuz I'm from a small village. But i couldn't hang out with my friends. Instead i spent my free time playing Stardew valley. Which made me want try growing a tree. Conveniently enough, in early sprin on a route i used to walk my dog on, i found a few acorns which were already growing roots on thr ground. I picked them up and planted them at home. Ove the next few months i spent my free time between zoom lessons admiring my litte oak saplings. I had a lot of them. Unfortunately because i used the wrong type of soil, non of them survived. A few years from then, i bought a pothos plant. It was the summer before i went to highschool. I was obviously very nervous about it cuz i went to a different school very far from my home and therefore i had to stay at a dorm. I was very quiet the first few months. One thing that helped me calm down was closing myself in my room, listening to some music or s podcast and just watching the pothos plant. It was so beautiful. Each leaf had a special pattern of those white spots. I was mesmerized by it. It grew more and more before i pruned it and made more plants from the cuttings. I had about 4 pothos plants on my window sill at this point. I was happy. Until some time ago when i lost a very very good friend. I was at my lowest. I felt sick to my stomach every single day. I couldn't even bare to look at the phone i got the heartbreaking message on. When i had no idea what to do, i caught myself looking at the pothos plants again. I got an idea. I threw my phone away where it wouldn't bother me and got to styling. I wrapped a linen string around chopsticks and made a ladder for the pothos to climb on. Then i used tubes with cocoa peat wrapped around them as Collums for the vines to climb. Now my plants weren't just messy vines growing wild. They were beautiful. I put a lot of care into it and i decided to dedicate them to my friend so that a piece of her soul lived on on my window sill. I found this to be a very good way to cope. Now when i look at my plants I don't just see some leaves. I see her. And I'll never forget her. I know this turned pretty sad but writing this out feels like putting a huge weight off my shoulders especially since i could only share this with a small group of online friends. Thank you to anyone who bothered to read this rant. I hope reading this would help someone in s similar situation. And if you're reading this, i hope you have a wonderful day :D