layer 032026: x automated suspension

ive been on twt since i was 15 around 08/09
i refused to leave despite elon fucking it all up after he took charge
i was there for the artists and the fanarts, always has been
but what happened in march 20, i will never forget this day

all those 15+ years worth of memories, gone
its been 4 days since ive been ruminating over this
i wanted to crash out, to cry so bad
but i tried so hard to suppress the pain until i feel nothing

thats how i cope anyway most of the time
when something bad happens, i just hope the pain goes away as i disassociate
no matter how heavy the pain is, i just couldnt handle the emotions all at once
i dont know what to feel to the point im lost in it

all i know is i will have to get over it
forgetting about archiving it was a mistake i still think about
perhaps doing so will atleast preserve some of the memories

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