my take on middle school/highschool relationships and why i think ill stay single for another few decades or like forever

i am not a very conservative person, im actually quite the opposite, i definitely wont say that the only reason you date is for marriage but what i do wanna ask, why date someone so young if you know you'll just end up breaking up. maybe im just a person with a lot of feelings but i dont think i could be with someone if i know that it wont be serious and that there wont be any commitment. i think i am maybe just sentimental but the thought of dating someone, knowing that your not gonna spend the rest of your days is sad to me, eventually your gonna have to stop seeing each other since its so "non committal" i think thats one of the reasons i want to wait till i date, but at the same time maybe im just sour since ive never experienced love like that and thats okay. who knows, i get some people dont wanna get into relationships where you have to commit to the other person but i dont think i could be like that, if im gonna be so honest i dont know if this is allowed on here but a while back i had a plan to become a street hooker as soon as i turned fifteen but honestly maybe i would get too attached, also i dont wanna get kidnapped and shoved in a closet, i am terrified of that. 

after a bit of rethinking it maybe i am just bitter because ive never had the opportunity to be in a relationship, even though theres 8 billion fish in the sea, and my standards have dropped drastically since the first time i liked someone, but moral of the story is, have fun in life, be happy with whoever you like, as long as its legal