Part 1: Loneliness

20/03/2026 03:30 am

Once again I am in my own room, without anyone to be with. I am not loved nor cared for.
Every time I meet someone new they are growing to dislike me, I am not sure why but it just happens.
I heard one of my friends started hanging out with my crush's group (she invited him), even though she said she is "asexual"; I am still kind of envious. I don't have any grudge against him, it is just that it simply not fair. 
"What about the people who love you? Your mom or dad?" Maybe, yeah, but for some reason they can't change this feeling of loneliness
What happens if I die alone? I get nothing, only the realisation that I have died cold again and unloved. Every time I think of it, it seems like other things in life are empty, and life loses its meaning.

A man sitting in a dark room in a small apartment alone infront of a computer seems like my future.

That is all for tonight