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True Love Waits by Radiohead was recommended to me by my ex in the middle of January. That day, he had told me he loved me. I scolded him for saying that when he had a partner, one that he had been with for about four months. I didn't truly care about his partner. I liked that he still professed his love to me. It made me feel wanted. I just wanted to appear as a good and respectful person. Someone he could be with. Ever since their relationship started, he had been constantly pouring his love out to me, promising that we would be together once more. I just had to wait.
So I waited.
I waited in October as his tears stained my shoulder while he told me he was in a relationship but he only wanted me. He only needed me.
I waited in December as he kissed me goodnight and told me he would end things with his partner soon.
I waited in March as I asked him if him and his partner were still together and he replied with a curt "Yeah and?"
And still I wait for him. I realize at this point, my emotions are pathetic. I know that I should forget about him and cut him off. But still, I wait in hopes that it will all be worth it.
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William
i look at this from a poetic pov. it sounds like... self deception yearning, as you said you don't want him but just the notion of being loved is what you crave, which most humans do, i don't blame you. But this poem is going to end sad, if it were one from the stories....you wouldn't have a happy ending.
but i wish you the best and i hope you find love elsewhere:)
I like your reply. I never really thought about it that way. I've grown so used to being in love and having a lover that now that I don't, I'm not sure what to do. I'm trying to accept that I don't need to be loved in a romantic sense to feel fulfilled, especially in an generation were we are trying to stray away from the idea that being in a relationship is the best thing that can happen to someone. All my friends were very supportive when we broke up and still are. They love me and I'm getting around to realizing that their love in enough :>.
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d1g1talll
Dude this person is a HUGE love bomber and i think you need to start taking the steps to moving on, not only did he hurt you by making you the other person, but also making you stay in the shadows while his partner was considered his "real" partneris fucking awful and not only that he was activley cheating on his partner with you and telling you he didnt really want to be with them and only wanted to be with you. This person needs to be humbled BADLY
Here's the kicker, d1g1talll. Me and him were together first before he cheated on me with his current partner. I would feel bad for his partner but they knowingly homewrecked and I resent them for it. Also, I love your username!
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