Spring Depression

UUUUUUUUGH!!! So like beginning of 2026 I PROMISED myself it would be my year, but god my depression has been so bad!!! Like waking up is such a drag and at night I look for ANYTHING to keep me occupied or else the great depression monster comes and eats me alive. It totally blows. I only one in-person class this semester and its my biggest regret!! I neeeeeeed to socialize more!!!!! or i might explode. Im working towards getting my license and from there JOB JOB JOB!!! I don't care where I work I just need something. I like stability and being on the schedule I am now I just feel like such a loser. I've been working on hobbies and stuff and I love that but I miss NOT HAVING TIME FOR HOBBIES! Anyway, I know like things will get better blah blah blah hopecore stuff. I''m just so over it !