Virtual Diary Log 28

Not much to say today. It's been a rough day. I listened to Lie by NF and realized that my ex husband was sending me a message without sending me one. So there was a lot of crying this morning. What if I am the one that messed this up? What if I am the one that caused him to ghost us? What if it was me? I could've gone in the other room and hung out with him more. I could have tried to reason with him more, I could've tried to understand what he was going through. I could have tried harder and maybe this wouldn't be happening. Maybe we would be okay and getting ready to move soon. What if I just stopped overthinking and actually listened to what he was telling me instead of my brain telling me what he was saying. I have a lot of dark thoughts right now and I'm not okay. I miss my friends. I miss gaming. I miss having social time.