Haven't been back in awhile...Hello!

Hello guys

I havent been here in a while but i wanted to say hello and ramble on...

i havent been on here because life has really caught up with me. a new girlfriend, a death of a friend, a death of a cousin, homelessness, family probelms...etc

all i seem to do nowadays to cope is to listen to music. A lot of midwest screamo...i like it alot.

usually I just listen to grunge and metal but ive been drawn to more emo lately... and im not talking about MCR type emo or PTV. Talking about like actual emo. like the underground stuff. 

anyways i want to talk about my amazing girlfriend Alexis.

my sweet girl. her baby blue eyes and dyed hair. beautiful she is. she understands me more than anything and thats why we get along so well. I love her so very and so much. She actually makes me wanna talk. and i hate talking...alot. my smile is infectious around her. and i love existing around her. we were friends for the longest time and i had a huge crush on her and im so happy i said something to find out she liked me to. she makes me believe that all the bad things that happened led me to her. all the shit i had to go through as a child led me to her, ncluding all the terrible realtionships ive had with women in the past. i dont beileve in god but maybe there is christ if she exists for me. idk. I love her

thats all i wanted to say

Chris