I love having a crush on someone

(sorry for my bad english)

Hello guys 

On my short lifetime, i had a lot of crushes (idk if this word exists) and i really like the the feeling of having one. Waiting all day to see the person, looking for them in a place full of people, idc its just magic. 

Of course i never had the balls to go and tell them that i liked them, i usually just watch the person from afar and hope they notice my existence, what they never really did. 

And im not sad because of this, maybe i dont really want them to talk to me, or date me, i think im just happy to watch them. But that makes me a little afraid, what if they never come and talk to me? Will I ever have a relationship? 

The only thing that makes me sad is when they leave. Everyday I walk at my school and look at the places my old crush used to walk in, and i miss looking at him averyday. 

Well, now i'll just wait until my new hyperfixation appears in front of my eyes. 

Bye bye guys 

xoxo