Bojack Horseman Season 1

I'm not the kind of guy that cries while watching movies or tv-shows or reading a book; it does happen on occasion that I tear up or shed a few tears, sometimes I properly cry and have a mental breakdown about it, or something--but what I did NOT expect was that I would cry while watching the first season of Bojack fckass Horseman! okay, I didn't actually "cry", but I did tear up at a few moments. I don't exactly remember each one, but the scene where secretariat (or whatever his name was) khs I teared up and got a bit emotional. though, I don't know how to explain why; I don't even consciously know why. and when I finished watching season one I also teared up and said to myself: "life, man, ...life." like, idk. just life, man, ...life. 

the reason I am finally watching this famous show from which I have seen and heard many tiktok sounds and edits is will wood. today morning--or early afternoon, I don't exactly remember--I watched a Q&A video on will wood's patreon and he was asked if there are any cartoons that have inspired him, or smth like that. his answer was: "well, Bojack Horseman fcking changed my life forever." and so I am now finally watching this show. I've been wanting to for a while now, but will wood was my reason for finally watching it now. 

I posted an insta story after having watched the first eight episodes where I wrote that I had only seen eight episodes of this show and it had already made me regret choices I haven't even made (yet) and left me to ponder on my life. "wtf even is Bojack Horseman". like, the quote "we're just two lonely people trying to hate ourselves a little less. maybe that's all we've ever been." really made me think. I can't really put these thoughts into words--it's difficult, but I don't want us to simply be two lonely people trying to hate ourselves a little less. and I don't want to be like this. but I guess that's what we are--or at least what I am... 

I'm thinking without words right now and don't know how to formulate these thoughts, but life, man, ...life.