School venting...

Lately im really struggling with school, it DRAINS me so much i never have energy at school im never motivated, today i stayed alone ALL DAY LONG cuz my friends didnt come at school so i was left alone, i mean i have other friends too but like theyre not my close friends. So firstly in the morning when i arrived i was waiting for my friend to come but she didnt, i was really hoping for her to come but none of them did, anyways i did talk to some people but in my class all the students have their own friend group they stay with so i cant just follow them everywhere, i would HATE to feel left out. And its not just today but even yesterday my friends didnt come cuz something personal happened to them and theyre not coming tmrr aswell, i freaking hateeeee staying alone i mean i dont mind it but i love staying with my close ones. And whats worse is that people kept asking me why im lonely etc but i didnt really care i tried to survive through the day, wich is suprising i didnt think i would survive since i had a science exam too. If i could stay in school library or smth would be good but no i cant cuz its closed, and cant stay with teachers too. I just hate this class literally the girls in my class were just staring at me and wouldnt say anything just stare weirdly and giggle. Such rude hos ugh i mean would it hurt to just offer me to stay together but nooo cuz they needa stay with their 'besties' ugh i was really bored today i couldnt wait to come home, now i needa go tomorrow too. I just really dont understand why is it soo difficult to offer a friend to stay together i mean u would want the same for you, wouldnt you? I just know that if i saw someone alone i would DEFINITELY offer them to stay together yk. I just really hate this school i cant wait to change it omg, i just really had to let out all of this experience somewhere. If you've come this far thank u so muchhhhh for reading my blog.