Simping and all

I don't feel attractiveness I guess like,

 "oh they're so hot" "look how hot they are",

And I look and all I see is a pretty person and yeah they are pretty but then that's it, they have a pretty smile, a good hairstyle, a good style, like oh..then what? What should I feel how should I react? 

But I always feel like I'm missing out when I'm with my friends some of them specifically two of them like to look for hot people at school when we're sat or we're walking toward another building, and sometimes it's people I saw myself but just completely missed out out of uninterest 

 One time for example that happened

"Yeah *hot girl you just showed me* I know who she is we're on the same bus everyday."

"wait why didn't you told me you saw that girl that much often"

Because why would I care? I thought I had high standards but I just do not care and I think it's one of the main reason I don't have a physical type, you have to convince me or I have to care enough to find you attractive, 

I'm fine that way because I find it stupid to thirst about people but I still feel like I'm missing something that most people around me have and connect with