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Im not even going to color this or make it aesthetically pleasing, im done, im done with it all. It doesnt get better, it doesnt just pass, I spend my hours and nights asking whats the point in all this suffering, im going to die anyway arent I? So why suffer like this? Why do I have to act like it is all alright just to make people feel good? Im not alright, im losing motivation and even worse every one of the methods I try fail, pills? i throw everything up, jumping? not brave enough, cutting? always get caught before i can even grab a knife Talking? I have tried but i cant theres always something going wrong. I want help, i want to be good and happy why is it so difficult? EVEN WORSE no one fucking cares or at least it feels like it. its been 15 times already and i cant get it to get better or even stop. im tired, i feel like im rotting alive, nobody cares to what happens they will only care once everything is done, i want to keep up for the people i love i know they need help and someone to be there but do they know i do need help as well? Do they notice and just try to ignore it maybe because of fear? I know they love me at least i think they do i dont want people to think im blaming them for this i dont want anybody to be mad at me maybe they dont know, maybe they dont notice at all. Is pathetic to be talking about this in the internet but i really cant keep up anymore and I dont have any reeal life friends so.. I want to get better i want to talk about it but i cant. im tired i want to rest, all of this could have been avoided all i really wanted its to talk, all i wanted was an honest hug but now its to late. space girl out
I lowkey need someone to see this
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𝕤𝕟𝕠𝕨𝕗𝕝𝕒𝕜𝕖
heyyy i don’t know you but i read everything you wrote and i just wanted to say that someone did see this. what you’re feeling sounds really heavy and exhausting and i’m really sorry you’re going through that you’re not pathetic for talking about it online. sometimes the internet is the only place where people can finally say things out loud i know it might feel like nobody notices or cares, but the fact that you’re still here and still trying to talk about it means there’s a part of you that still wants things to get better and that matters <3
even if i’m just a random person on here, i’m really glad you’re still here. you deserve to be heard and you deserve support and you deserve not having to go through everything alone. please, please keep reaching out, even if it feels hard
sending you a lot of kindness tonight. you’re not invisible.
thank u hope u are having the great night u wished for me i wish u have it
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caged.roses
hello, ik saying 'it gets better' wont change anything because i know how stupid it feels when someone tells you that. what i do want to say that help is here if you really feel like youre on edge of doing something serious. there are 24/7 helplines, i dont know what country are you from, but please do contact them if you feel serious. i know it might feel cringe, i thought that way too. but you expressed wanting to be happy, and i believe you can get help, even if it feels like you cant. i know im just some random on internet, but i called the same hotline few years ago and they saved me. i understand the feeling of rotting, but please dont put harsh expectetions on yourself. you being alive and okay is a good thing and youre doing great, keep going. all love to you, i hope it gets better for you even if it doesnt feel like it for some time. <3
thank u for ur words have a great life
by ╚══ஓ๑Space Girl♡๑ஓ══╝; ; Report