I wrote this song/poem after waking up from a nightmare where the moon exploded and an apocalypse was about to begin. Also, recently around this time I ended a complicated relationship, and I still think a lot about our moments and everything I loved about her. I hope whoever reads this enjoys it, and if you're going through a similar breakup, I want you to know that this emptiness and infinite longing will pass and everything will be alright. Some things unfortunately aren't meant to be, and you should follow what's best for you. XO

Tonight i saw the moon explode

The night was cold

It was so beautiful

There was destruction everywhere

And it was so difficult

Even so, I still wanted you there

I miss your taste

I miss your poison

Your explosion  

I'm sorry for pushing you away

even though it's what ensured my survival today

I can still taste that smell of yours 

that burns in my throat

those big eyes of yours

which turn blue in their falsehood  

the bright blonde hair of yours

turning red at sunshine

What shit do you still think of me? 

Speak to me in your tarot cards

Do they tell you how much I miss you with hatred? 

Ignoring me when night starts

But wanting me completely when it faded

I miss your taste

I miss your poison

Your explosion  

I'm sorry for pushing you away

even though it's what ensured my survival today

Your face still shines for me

Like the sun shining on the moon 

And when it exploded the sky went dark 

How do you still manage to fit into my thoughts? 

Even though I've covered up my whole heart

I saw the moon explode

The night was cold

It was so beautiful

Destruction everywhere

And it was so difficult

Even so, I still wanted you there

Bianca Banana S2