update yap session

HELLO MOTHERFUCKERSSSS HAHAHSJF um ok to start with i am sorry for not being that active to actually being sorry to nobody bc nobody reads my blogs uhh a lotta happened and oh boy i got tea. I. GOT. TEAAAA AHHAHDHJFJ 

starting with school, i fucking hate my classroom. I. HATE IT. NO BECAUSE ALL OF THE GIRLS SUCK SO MUCHHH UGH like why should i care yaknow AND ALL OF THE BOYS IN MY CLASS ARE IMMATURE AND THEN THERES THESE WEIRD KIDS THAT ARE LIKE SUPER WEIRD OMG so yea im alone with my otaku anime uwu friend from the past 3 schools which im not that intimate with but she thinks the opposite oh well she doesn’t stop chasing me ughh i hate it when people are dependent on me because WHY are people so obsessed with me. WHY DO I KEEP GETTING OBSESSED OVER ITS NOT LIKE IM THAT SPECIAL YALL..

and ok ok today i was going to FREAK OUT in school because it was um so noisyy and the boys kept making immature af jokes like “who wins epstein or diddy!!” none. both go to jail. and the girls in my class SUCK like they made fun of me so many times lmao .. i ALWAYS get chosen last in p.e its amazing how its so persistent when im not even that bad. like they’re judging me for being socially awkward and thats not fucking funny?? like i mean i barely had the chance to socialize because im a fucking loser and they’re making fun of me LIKE THAT?? so there’s just these days where i think to myself why im NOT supposed to attack people because i am SO CLOSE. TO ATTACK PEOPLE I WANT TO SMASH THEIR HEADS ON THE WALLS AND CHOKE THEM URGHGJGJFJFJ like i want to see their blood coming out. and this is where people notice i am not okay and i need help but fact is, i feel like a therapist would be worried of hearing this. no really cause i had to act SO NICE for the neurodivergence test that my mum took me to last week and i hate acting nice for my whole life i just wanna kick someone in the ass intentionally god damn it (yes i did have the chance to do that but its not like it mattered) BECAUSE I JUST KEEP HOPING PEOPLE MAKE FUN OF ME SO I CAN HURT THEM BACK..

but anyways lets just mention other stuff uhh oh yea yesterday some guy on youtube threatened me to stop posting and that he’d leak my ip ❤️ weird. his name is “mahbub alam” and its a surprisingly very common name in india so i even found many versions of mahbub alams, like search that name up on google and you’ll find a doctor, you’ll find a rapper, a politician and like a lot more. even hardware support which is pretty insane its kinda like a multiverse so it felt like a blessing coming across one of the mahbub’s even if hes probably gonna hack me or shit

AND OH MY GOD LETS MENTION HOW TOMODACHI LIFE LIVING THE DREAM IS SO CLOSE TO RELEASING AHHHH WE GOT NONBINARY OPTIONSSSSCJJSHAAHAHAAH i rlly hope they add unnatural skin colors tho, that’d be a blessing 🙏 

and umm i think im done cya like um obviously there’s a lot more i could have discussed but i’d rather not spend that much time writing a blog soo