Lycan's horrendous dating life - Absolution

Hai Hai °^°

That's it! I finally snapped! I deleted these dating apps today once and for all FOR GOOD! I just can't handle it anymore... I'm so so so so so SOOOOO DONE WITH MEN! I-
(Sigh...)

For those who don't know I registered myself on dating apps last year and... It was quite a journey... Quiet an... Experience... This is part 3 of this "saga" and I just wanted to let out all my remaining frustrations in this (hopefully) final blog post about this particular topic.

!Warning! This is gonna be a little lengthy! (Says he, like someone will actually bother reading any of this lol.)!

TL;DR: F*CK MEN!

This whole ordeal lasted almost 8 months. I originally intended to go for a full year but I'm seriously so drained, sick and tired that I just had to quit early. In my last blog post I gave a little more of a general idea as to what I had to deal with overall. And of course, my take-away from all these lessons I learned and revelations I had, most importantly about myself. So... This is going to be more of a rant about how much I came to despise men and how this supposed holy grail that is having a relationship is nothing but bullsh*t XD!!!

You'd think as a gay man you'd be spared from all the sh*t you'd usually hear from the gurlies, since you know... both parties should be on the same page? But no, hell no, DEAD WRONG NO! I've had to deal with a lot of the same sh*t you'd typically would expect from a straight, entitled man, who thinks that just because he took his "pReCiOuS tImE" to type you the most foul message attached with his disgusting dick pic, you'd owe him something! And this wasn't just a one time thing, it was a STAPLE! The amount of disrespect I've had to deal with even though I clearly stated every time that I am not interested in receiving dick pics of any kind is immeasurable. And it gets even worse!

One of these disgusting individuals after I blocked him multiple times swore that he would keep trying with more accounts until he'd finally break me so he gets to smash me!!! And not just smash me but to do it in front of one of my family members, so he can watch them deep into the eyes while he's doing me!!! WTF!!! And if that's not concerning enough I know thanks to the app that he actually lives in my town! And since I am very easily distinguishable there might actually be a chance he'll find me in real life!!! I really don't wanna jinx it...

That's not all. Yep, there's a lot more! And these happenings don't even pertain to dating apps exclusively...
I mentioned above that I am easily distinguishable, as I have a very noticeable style with me being an emo/scene/y2k baddie boy as I'd like to call myself haha XD!
You know how women get harassed due to the way they dress or the fact that they simply exist? That happens to me as well and I'm not even a girl!!! They always think that I am and once they're proven wrong... In their brains, it gives them even more of a right to mistreat me...

Last Saturday, I went to the store to buy some groceries. My fit wasn't even that crazy. It was a black and pink sweater with skinny jeans and my knee high converse. Soon, I've noticed that some group of teenage boys around 15-17 years were looking at me suspiciously. They walked by and asked me if they could have a picture with me. I declined, because I instantly sensed that their intentions weren't nice. (Past experiences like that also made me more cautious.) When I told them "No.", guess what happened afterwards? Was it:

A.) They politely excused themselves for bothering me.

B.) They just walked away to mind their own business.

C.) They rudely asked "Why not?" like an entitled man would since they just can't accept "No." for an answer, and as I walked away in annoyance I've heard them whisper "Let's just film him from afar." And they continued to stalk me through the store until I finally lost them.

If you chose C.) you're correct :D!!! And if you think to yourself "They're just stupid kids don't take them too seriously." These stupid kids will eventually become the same problematic men who raised them to behave like that in the first place!

I could go on and on an on about more instances with men just like these ones but I think these examples are enough to carry the point across.
Taking all of this information into consideration you can only conclude with one verdict... And that is to be done with men once and for all!

We've all been fed this stupid delusion from childhood on that getting a romantic partner and being in a relationship is the perfect happy ending. So many of us wasted and keep wasting so much precious time investing into people that were never worth our time in the first place.
And so many of us settle for less out of fear of dying alone. It's... such a shame...
Sure, some of us find that one in a million good man "Mr. Right" and even though they are a minority, they do exist. But, this is the exception not the rule. If you want my advice on how to find that man, I can only say to look for them in fiction XD. That is were I find them and that's good enough for me. Of course, it's hard to let go of this desire you have been so eagerly waiting for your whole life and it's totally okay to take your time and mourn that fantasy! In fact, it is a necessary step towards growth! So... Where does it leave me?

I have completely lost all interest in dating. I learned that I don't need a partner to complete myself and be happy. And I'm convinced/know that finding a good man is impossible. And... I accept that outcome. Since, I no longer have any need for that I can finally dedicate my time to other things. Things that bring me joy, things that help me move forward, things that evolve me! And if on my new road I happen to meet my exception then so be it! And if not, then that's fine as well! Because, I already have people in my life that make everyday great by just existing! (Shout-out to my platonic besties X3! You gurlies are great :D!)

So, unless I somehow get to meet my exception, men start to get their sh*t together or I get blessed with pansexuality XD... That is the end of the line. I'm done with men. I'm sick of men. I'm tired of men. And I'm frankly disgusted at how the gender I have biologically been assigned with treats women and other people who don't fit into their entitled piece of sh*t world view! I once came across a good quote while scrolling through Instagram Reels: "Women hate men as a system. Men hate women as people."

Let that sink in and think about it.

#AlwaysGonnaBeAGurlsGurlEvenThoughI'mNotAGurlLOL

On that note I'm ending this blog post the same way as the last one:

I'm always open to meeting new people! So, if any of that stuff here resonates with you...
You're gladly invited to comment and/or send friend requests! (As long as you're over 18, haha).

Anyways, have a nice day, night or whatever time you have and thanks for reading my stupid ramblings!

Cheers :3

Lycan