Breakups are weird

(this is just me rambling)
 So I'm newly single and while we kinda broke up in a fight, we're still on decent terms and decided to stay friends. It just feels dissappointing, since it seems fixable to me (not to him tho, and I respect that). That kinda gives me the delusion that a fresh start in a year or so might work (it's stupid). 

Looking back it's probably for the best but I still miss it. Yes, love is the most irrational thing ever but I consider myself to be fairly rational when it comes down to the basics - so yes, I'm not used to this. I suppose I will be fine, I just really wish that I'd already found my forever person. As a romantic, I want to find a happily ever after. That soulmate who you can always count on (I also got friends for that, fortunately, but in those 2 years I got too used to having a special person). It's also my first time being single since being the age of consent. It isn't at all how I imagined and it just feels weird.