I hate porn addicts. Excuse the amount of yap

Very recently, my ex-boyfriend broke up with me. Lets call him Ostrich. Ostrich and i are a year apart, we met in late November-ish through one of my friends, who didn’t know he was weird. We dated for two and a half months and we exchanged photos (yk the kind).I did find out early on from him that he USED TO watch porn and gave it up for pur relationship (i don’t believe that no more). I made my boundary of waiting to have sex till marriage and the fact i was already a victim VERY CLEAR to him so it never got extreme, ig.. I was not forced to send, but honestly i feel like looking back at our texts, i was coerced into sending most of them. I sent the first one mostly out of just fun since we had a late night call and jokingly said “what would you do if I showed you my tits?” I remember he was kinda practically begging to see them for the rest of the call and when we hung up i gave in and sent.

From there it was kind of a chain of sending nudes (I remember i sent more than he did). Sometimes i did it out of my own free will, mostly it was him asking. I’m not going to say I didn’t ask either but i only asked because I didn’t want to be the only one sending, I barely thought about his uncircumcised, u-turn looking dick, unlike him, who gooned to my tits and face every other day.

I’m the type of girlfriend to ask those annoying hypothetical questions like, “who would you save if i had complications during labor, me or the baby?” Shit like that yk? One time i asked, “what’s the first thing you wanna do when we get married?” He said “first thing we are doing is cracking i mean like what else is there?” I SHOULD’VE RAN. I remember one time we got into this random argument over idk what and it led to him saying “Look, I’m not with you for the sex, i want to stay with you forever, but I don’t wanna wait so long to crack” after i restated my marriage boundary. HE FUCKING CONTRADICTED HIMSELF. For Valentine’s Day, i asked him what he wanted, he said “i would ask for smth but it’s not a gift and you don’t like it..” i said “if its already attached to me im not doing it” (did it either way im an idiot) 

Ok so the in-person stuff. We got together towards the end of the quarter, so he was allowed to visit my film class since he finished his final for music tech. My film class is full of my friends and like one friend of his. We sat mostly alone in my row, (besides my friend who sometimes skipped and some rlly sweet guy who were both in my class) since my film class was still working on our final, people were going in and out of the media room and my bf and i were mostly the only ones in the row (besides that other sweet guy). When that was happening, he just wanted to make out with me, which i was like “not in front of my friends dude.. couple smooches is fine but thats it” he listened to that at least but then he touched my tit💔 i wanted ti stop him because I genuinely felt uncomfortable, but I didn’t say anything, just let it happen cuz i just wanted to leave class alr. During lunch on Fridays (only lunch we have tg), we would sit alone and watch whatever on the school ipads, like kdramas (watch The Glory its goated), and Ostrich was never there to eatch the show with me, he for some reason always got hard at my presence and lowk one time made me touch his dih through his pants (eww..)

Ok so now we get to the break up.. I’ve been noticing that during February break, he hasnt been paying much attention to me but i brushed it off because he was in DR for break. But it got to the point that when he was back, and i called him, he did not acknowledge me at all. I told him ab it and he basically said “recently, ive only been seeing you as an object for sex and i feel bad.. not using my sex addiction as an excuse but you dont deserve to be done dirty so im leaving.” Obviously got super mad and I deleted every trace of myself on his phone (at least i hope i did)

Yesterday, my friend (same friend that got us tg), was telling ostrich’s friend about the situation because he was mad and felt bad for me, and turns out, ostrich lied about how we broke up and only told him about the falling out of love part. It got me piss ab how he would just lie to his closest friends ab that. Also turns out that not even an hour later, i find out that ostrich was showing my nudes to another friend of his that I didn’t know ab (while we were dating btw). My best friend’s other friend was in his gov class and overheard him saying “look at what the girl im talking to sent me” and she saw him turn down the brightness. The only reason i found out yesterday was because the girl did not know me at all. I found all this out within ONE SCHOOL DAY BRO!! I had a panic attack during last period and told my teacher ab it.

Im reporting him first thing today when i get to school, showing all the screenshots. Shout out to all my friends they real ones, love you🩷

Update (3/12): I did report him yesterday to the sophomore and junior principles at my school, they did talk to my friends involved and they also talked to him directly about the situation. They couldn’t confirm or deny that he showed my nudes but he is not allowed to approach me, (which he violated today, check new blog for context)