My head pt 2

Maybe I'm being too depressing, but I'm simply just sharing what's on my mind. Isn't that what the people want? My truth my life story. Besides the point I like to be honest with my fans. Even if that means scaring them with my truth. And even though my life is shit and I feel no point in even trying in my life anymore. I still have this small, almost micro sense of hope.

After all that shit!! I still am grasping on this small small SMALLLL TINNYYYYYYY ray of hope that maybe just maybe I can still become something great!

Isn't that just pathetic. The girl who was thrown to monsters and destroyed and abused still believes that her dreams can come true. She is still grasping onto the positive whispers of the very few people that entertained the thought that she could accomplish you dreams. 

Damn it! You'd think I would just let myself sink into the hole of truth and despair. But Deep down I don't want to live in this small ass town I'm in. Everywhere I look I see the faces of my childhood. I reminded of the pain that others have done to me. I wish to move far far far away and not have to remember any of it. 

Sadly at this rate it's gonna be really hard but I believe in myself. Sadly I still will just keep moving forward. Forward through all my failures and hurt. I will find a way damn it. 

I'll start small but my ambition will grow and I will take over the world!!