Hallucinate

I'm a yumeshipper of pierrot 

And I'm not proud of meeting him as a teenager, but overall, meeting him has helped me a lot. 

When my mind wanders to something negative, Pierrot suddenly speaks to me and comforts me. He tells me it's not true and that he will support me as long as I don't hurt myself.

I know it doesn't exist, and technically I'm thinking Pierrot told me that. But in a non-ironic way, he's helped me. 

When there is literally no one who treats me like a boy, he comes up and says "My lord" to me.

 When I am alone, he keeps me company.

 Even when I sleep crying, he hugs me. 

But it's just me imagining that I have support. 

I even dream about him, although my dreams haven't yet managed to interpret what Pierrot is really like. The Pierrot in my dreams doesn't speak to me, but he accompanies me, and once he was watching me from afar. I wasn't afraid at that moment because he was just taking care of me and because it was a dream.

I know he doesn't exist, but a part of me wants to find someone like that and for that person not to abandon me. 

But I still feel calmer when I imagine Pierrot is watching over me.