I feel late.

Hello, friends. How are you?
This is the second time I’ve tried to write this. I’m not exactly sure why, but it was difficult to put everything into words. Still, I wanted to try again.

I feel very behind compared to my friends. I’m a teenager, and many of them already drink, date, kiss, go to parties, and have been through several stages of relationships. I haven’t. I haven’t even had my first kiss.

Sometimes I feel like I’m living a different kind of teenage life than they are.

In most conversations, I feel a little lost, because they almost always talk about boys, parties, or things I simply haven’t experienced. So I usually just sit there listening, without much to say.

Sometimes I feel ugly, strange, or even childish compared to them.

But at the same time, I don’t feel jealous. Honestly, I wouldn’t want to live exactly the way they do. Sometimes it feels like their lives are always moving too fast, like everything could fall apart at any moment.

Despite all of this, I feel okay with myself. I have people who love me, and I know I am very loved.

Sometimes I wonder why no boy shows interest in me or even sends me a message.

It’s strange because, at the same time that I feel good about myself, I also feel a little invisible.

Sometimes I feel a bit like Lara Jean Covey. Not exactly the same, but with that feeling of living more inside my own thoughts than in the stories that seem to happen to everyone else.

I always imagined my teenage years would be more like the movies, full of special moments and unexpected encounters.

Do you ever feel the same way? Write to me too. ♡˚˖𓍢ִ໋❀