depersonalization and friends

I've been in this dreamy like robotic state for months now and it's a little spooky but not too  unbearable. The only thing though is like I don't even really see the point in going out or trying to meet people because nothing feels real right now. The only online friend that I've made in the past year seems to have moved on almost and has lots of other online friends now that they speak more with and play games in groups with, which of course isn't a bad thing, I'm very happy for them but it's just a little lonely.

My boyfriend is busy almost everyday all day with work and school and we only really get to talk after like 7pm most days unless we can hangout, but he doesn't really play games with me often. I play games with my brother for the most part but he also has a group of friends so we don't play all the time which leaves me playing singleplayer most of the time.

I've been posting online and stuff about how I need friends and all the people that reach out to me are all dudes who don't actually want to be my friend and they want something else from me, so I don't even bother to respond anymore. I just want a best friend again I feel so hopeless and AGHHH I hate this I don't like complaining but oh my god I'm so frustrated.