6. all this shyt

The past few weeks. like the past two or so, have been UNWASHED ASS. absolute BUNS. but I'll start with lately

I had to take pictures for track AND softball on thursday and it didnt go good. I took pictures for track easily enough even though I was supposed to take pictures of this girl I couldnt find so oh well (they also took their sweet ass time getting ready), but I didn't get any other pictures I actually needed. I had to get varsity pictures then so I walked down to where they practiced for a group picture and only got one for JV which I didnt need till today (didn't go today cuz idfc anymore) and people were there but there wasn't a lot of people and they said their coach was a completely different guy than the one I emailed, its also supposedly a girls only team but I saw guys and it looked like they were playing baseball IDKKKKK. so I sat around till the track meet was over and waited an hour till the game was supposed to start but I had no idea where it was being held so I ended up calling my mom, I was gonna tell her to drive by this field I assumed it could be at but she took THIRTY FUCKING MINUTES TO GET ME., my school is 7 minutes away I WAS LIVIDDDDDDDDD. not only that but I was sick as shit, felt like I had strep, a cold, and vertigo all wrapped up in one and then my hips hurt, my legs hurt, my chest was cramping, my stomach was churning, I was exhausted, and my shoulders hurt from carrying around my school bag and camera bag ALL DAY. mind you this is after I went through a whole ass school day n had to take pictures in the heat. 

my yearbook teacher is gonna be so mad at me. the only way I can get pictures before the deadline is by going to an away game and I don't WANNAAAAAAAAAA but I will. I do NOT wanna go to school tomorrow.

in better news, my moms bumfuck boyfriend is gone. I told my bf I want a digicam recently and he told me yesterday he's getting me one <//3 I think he's ordered it already and Immmmmmm pretty excited even though I wasnt being very cooperative... I hate when he tells me he's getting me something cuz I always feel so guilty when he spends money on me. specially cuz he doesn't really have a lot of money most of the time. I dont know what to get him in return cuz I have no way of getting money fr <//3 he never expects anything from me but I feel too bad not getting him something so I'll usually make him a lil gift but even that doesn't feel like enough. I told him not to get it for me ( even though I really really reeeeeeally want one) but he made me choose one anyways and ordered it. he showed me this fancy one that was like 30 dollars or sumn and I realized how cheap my taste is cuz I'd been looking at 20 and under., told him to get the cheaper one (I liked the look of it). we madee a couples account for saving gift ideas n stuff and I'm sooooooooooooooo excited for summer cuz I have so many ideas for dates n hangouts n shit AAAAAAAAAAA and if I have that digicam Im gonna take soooooo many pictures AAAAAAAAAA I'm excited. 

I cant wait for spring break and SUMMER I've never cared much for summer past it being a break but omg. I get to fuck around with my bf for half the summer and have him over all the timeeeee get to go on lil dates and do couple stuff and have matching couple things and have couple talks and make smoothies and bake and stuffff hehehehehe. then the other half of the summer I get to stay with my sister in Florida and go to the beach and the park and have gay little picnics and paint and walk around and stay up laughing at old cosplay music videos and do each other's nails and eat a ton of food and go to the FFUCKING MALLLLL  AAAAAA OMG AND COOKOUTS UUUUGH. you have no idea how badly I wanna go to a cookout and eat some bbq and sneak drinks UUUUGH and go to the mall to walk around and get auntie Anne's and some Chinese food and get free discounts at hot topic FUUUUUUUUUHCK I miss it so bad. I actually love how her family is so social cuz they throw parties all the time and the food is always popping. I need a friend group man

its like highhhh on my bucket list to have a color themed picnic where everyone chooses a color and get foods that are that color so we can all have a big ass picnic or whatever. I wanna do things like that so badddddd

I'm trying to make one of those cardboard bracelet holders but we don't really use paper towels so its kinda hard to find stuff fr.. and my bf is bringing me some coke cans so I can make him more flowers. he likes the flower I gave him for Valentine's day alot, he says he smells it every night and when he needs to calm down soooo I'm gonna make these smell the same cuz he said the smell is fading on that one

I've also been working on a gift for when he gives me the digicam as a lil suprise cuz he thinks he's gonna get away with getting me something without anything in return

song playing is Osmosis by Origami Angel