I want summer (school is fucking my last 2 brain cells fr)

Tell me why i always find school pretty fun with my friends and all (not the actual lessons tho they suck so much) but as soon as i come back home and im left all alone i feel so shitty that it makes me genuinely cry 

And dont get me started with my failing subject that keeps on getting worse (ik thats my fault for not studing enough)

Like summer really heals me and makes me feel less depressed about my problems its like heaven 

The school system really pisses me off like hell i can't be fucking anxious and sad all year excerpt for like 3 months grgrgrgrg