Music is my outlet

I love music, not just listening to it to drain my thoughts. I hate talking about my problems and feelings after being excluded and somewhat shamed in my family for talking about that went through my mind, which for some time was pretty crude and dark. 

Now, music is my only outlet for emotions, even if I don't sing well, I find myself singing until my throat goes raw just to feel calm, but now I can't do it anymore because my mom stays home and mocks me and recorded me to show my family to laugh over it even after I asked her not to.