APPARENTLY everyone thinks i have autism (at least im not diagnosed)
its really getting bad sometimes, i make jokes about it to my new friends and they just assumed that i have it! one friend (YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE) though i was autistic since we have known each other for like 2 years.
now heres the thing... im actually thinking about it, sometimes i feel theres this part of me that doesn’t feel right. at least it doesnt feel like other people have the same experience
(EXEPT AUTISTIC PEOPLE)
some reasons why im second guessing that i might be autistic:
1. i get overstimulated if theres too much going on
2. if i get overwhelmed i scratch the back of my head or do this weird hand movement (prob stimming)
3. i already have diagnosed ADHD and people with ADHD have a high probability that they also have autism (idk saw it somewhere)
4. i actually CAN NOT have a day without my noise cancelling headphones (found out the hard way)
5. some textures i HATE at a point i would rather touch mine own poo that texture
6. if my schedule changes out of nowhere evan a bit! i get overwhelmed and i dont know what to do anymore
7. sometimes its hard for me to understand jokes or sarcastic comments
8. when i need to change my behaviour like 'dont say that word anymore" or a person changes their pronounce i always need to think to myself "OK dont do that anymore THATS WRONG! we need to do this instead"
9. i think i do masking and i didn’t even know i was doing it, for example: when i am with friend group 1 im a diffrest person than i am with friend group 2
10. Sometimes i get autistic content on my fyp. of autistic people talking about they’re experiencings and it scary how much i CAN relate to them
the list goes on and on
i had a short convo about it with my dad and he was like " you can’t be autistic you know how people have emotions" . and just to put out there the only reason i know that is because i LEARNED it
i don’t know whats real anymore
should i get tested? or would it just be a waste of time?
IF it is diagnosed what would i do with that information?! its not like i get a nother 10 min on my tests?
this is so convincing..
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