I hate when people think having a disorder is quirky and fun

So I've been diagnosed with ADHD for almost two years now (even though I kind of knew I had it for years), and I find it really irritating when people try to portray having it as a cutesy and quirky thing when it can actually create so much unnecessary stress to ones life.

The way you differentiate a disorder and an emotion is that almost anyone can feel certain emotions (like feeling depressed or anxious), but when that emotion is something that begins to affect your life in a way that actually hinders your day-to-day living, it can be classified (diagnosed) as a disorder.

I understand if you are someone who believes they may have the disorder but haven't gotten diagnosed yet, it is okay to be skeptical. However, for those who self-diagnose or misrepresent the disorder drastically, it actually hurts the community of people who really deal with it as a disorder (and take it seriously, given how much it hinders their lives).

I have always been icked out by the kind of people that would be like "oH hAhA I HaVE a DiSorDeR aNd gEt To uSe iT iN a WaY tHaT jUstIFIes eVerY bAd aCtIoN."

Unfortunately, it turns out that those kinds of people never truly escape you... even if we are (collectively) past the 'cringe' 2020/pandemic/lockdown era T-T

I don't even like talking about me having ADHD that often, but it's something that has been getting in the way of my life a LOT recently, so I do not want to stay quiet about it.

For context, I am a second-year university student, and I'm on medication for my ADHD. 

Every time I try my hardest to tackle academic work, it backfires on me immensely, making me feel like I am not cut out for it. It has gotten to the point of affecting my self-worth, self-esteem, and overall mental health (like feeling super depressed).

I do not want to blame having ADHD on everything because who knows, it could be a part of my personality that creates this immeasurable level of laziness I possess (maybe my dopamine receptors are just beyond fried)... 

But GODDDDDD does it hurt when I realize that I am constantly not living up to my potential on a day-to-day basis, simply because I cannot complete simple tasks that should only require minimal thinking and execution. 

I especially struggle a LOT with time management, which is an awful problem to have, since there are serious consequences for not being on time in university. It has gotten to the point of pushing assignments off way PAST the deadline and just accepting penalties for it. Ironically enough, I am actually writing this blog while ignoring an essay I was supposed to submit a week ago, LMAO.

Procrastination's a bitch.

I've tried so hard to fix my lifestyle and sense of self-discipline, but I'm starting to give up. There is almost no advice I haven't seen online that I haven't tried already, and even if I do, it does not end up helping in the long-run.

I guess this is kind of a cry for help - if you, too, have ADHD or are someone who previously (or currently) struggles with time management, disorganization, self-discipline, and overall feeling like you aren't living to your full potential, pls feel free to reply and share your thoughts on this 

... and if you have advice, PLEASE LMK, because I am runninggg out of ways to be able to fix myself :P

I WANT to be ambitious and goal-driven; I KNOW I have a lot I can do to bring about positive change in the world, but I need to first work on myself before I can even begin to think about helping others :,)