just thinking

i know that im gonna do something great. and i even kinda know how. i do know how. but what if i try and it turns out im wrong? what would i be left to do? i guess thats really what im afraid of. im gonna panic if it doesn't show as soon as i do. its the worst feeling. standing there, alone. and ive been wrong so many times before. or i was ignoring that i was right. am i delusional or am i guided? 'caught between the tides of pain and rapture' annoying how, it takes the words of someone else to make you see clearly. and that's why i have to just do what i already do. louder, though.