i want my own house, being homeless hurts so much at this point

):i want my own house dad:(

pls invest the 10k in my bank account 

no dying until i find my studio apartment

i don't want my posters to hang only on my bedroom walls / they should also dominate the hallways, and while they're dominating the hallways / i want to write poems on my bedroom’s white and boring walls with crayons / and i would also love to sew and cut things on my white and boring curtains / i’d like to be able to drink my tea in a bathtub, not at the table / i want to see the fumes of burning incense flying in my house and smoke rising from my cigarettes / i would like to try dyeing my hair with different colours and only see myself in a large mirror at this imaginary home, nobody else / i want to wear whatever i feel like; some days clothes, maybe dresses, probably pyjamas, usually a bathrobe, occasionally underwear, often topless, other times nothing at all / i don't just want to sleep in my bed, some nights on sofas, in tents i made when i was a child with cushions, on rugs / i have to fill the fridge with perfume, almond milk and all kinds of alcohol / i need a record player and a lot of vinyl / there shouldn't be any clock or calendar in this house / there must be coloured lighting in the bathroom / pool table, board games, chess and table football, of course, why not / yamaha piano, guitar made with rosewood and violin from ebony wood for visits of the best friend / acrylic paints, a lot of canvas, brushes / notebooks, notebooks, noteb– also add a typewriter, for very very unperformative reasons / no television, fuck it, yes, we need to play games from ps3 and watch movies / newspapers in different languages and from different nations / oven! i don't have the patience to cook on the stove, i’d probably be the type of person who makes bachelor meals / a pillowcase filled with the clothes of a beloved one / i think a bit of clutter also can bring the atmosphere to life / but no matter what i buy for this house, i will never buy noise and uneasiness!!!!!!