I miss bening happy...

Lately i´ve been remembering some memories from some moments, series from TV, and some other things that reminds me of my childhood and remembering them i put to cry a little. I´m going to tell you that almost all my memories are very bizarre. 

Knowing that i have autisim and AHDH sice i was 2, my life had been always very bizarre. The 90% of the memories that i had are very bizarre idk how to explain them. Is always a very blurred image of all that memories.

I remember more some (I think it were a lot but i´m not sure abt that bcs idk i saw a series at my childhood and i didin´t knew it) series that i used to watch in my childhood when i was 4, more than the people that i know from that times...

That´s because why when i reencounter with some of theese people and they´re say "Do you remember me?" i don´t remember them LOL

But the only 2 places when i have more beutiful memories from my childhood from when i was 0-8 years old, it was in my school and in my house. My teachers and parents they´re really understand me and they helped me a lot. Thing that now is impossible bcs now i feel incomprended by both sides (Especially from my parents even they say me the opposite...)

In my school until 3rd grade it was the most perfect era for me. The teachers really understanded me and they were so nice with me. 

Now the actual ones that i have they understand me but a little...

This shitty depression makes want to die and i don´t want that bcs i´m too young and... errr.... idk what i´m going to say wahhhhhh!!!!1!1!11!!

Anyways, i miss being happy and i want to experiment my times from when i was 4/5 with the actual madurate that i have to see all that moments again.

What´s the matter with me..???