i swear i tried to.

i asked my aunt if i could come over and talk with her cuz i was feeling like shit and didnt wanted to keep hurting me and i do not trust myself, so i asked her, she sadi yer. ok. my other aunt who was at my house atm is a bitch, so, i told her to not go there cuz i wanted to talk with my aunt ALONE and it was obvious i was feeling bad.

i go to her home, thinking i could finally come out as trans and tell someon i relapsed again to ask for help

and then

knock knock guess what bitch SHE EVEN STAYED FOR DINNER I FUCKING HATE YOU

im back at my home ofc but gooooooooood was it that difficult to not be a sassy noisy bitch for ONCE in her life? i fucking hate her.

anyways, the food was excellent im so full rn, im barely eating anything these days, feeling so bad emotionally and anxious takes all my apetite away, i cant even drink water without wanting to throw up

i sent a lot of money and make up and that kind of stuff today, if i cant be the man i want to be might i eat least look like a decent woman

i feel like a fucking alien someone please skin me alive and push me in front of a bus

if you read this for some reason, i hope youre having a nice day/night0/afternoon/life, remember to brush your teeth and stay hydrated, if youre struggling with sh too or just have some wound remember to treat it properly, you dont want that shi infected bud ::p