long ahh rant on people romanticizing literal disorders.. and my experiences whit it

it kinda pmo how people on tt or like any platform has watered down the meaning of like anxiety and depression etc so bad, people take DISORDERS lightly and then turn around and say "ew omg this depressed guy didnt shower or take care of himself for three months" like???????? i dont even want to talk about the poor people with bpd it actually makes my blood boil when i see bums "oop my bf ignored me so i cheated on him.. sry! i have princess disorder!!" im not talking about the actual people WITH bpd im talking about those idiots whom self diagnosed. although in some cases i can see self-diagnosing is fine when they've kinda been thinking about it for a while and or family members that can pass so and so down yk? not just jumped to a conclusion. oh fuck i have every disorder in the work and my eyes turn red when im mad, im so nicole from class 09!!.

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mostly why i am talking abt this is irl experiences, like if ive been diagnosed with smth... and i act like i have it.. why are you getting pissed... for example i have some sort of ptsd, i am never fully here because a big part of ptsd for me, is the daydreaming/dissociation part. and it causes me to not pay attention to anything because im sooo stuck in my mind. its safer to be there then present irl. im pretty sure its called Manipulative Daydreaming, don't quote me this is probs spelt wrong- but anyways ive been clinically diagnosed with ptsd since 2024, so its not a new known thing. and im still honestly ass at paying attention to anything, even my fav games rn, or just having to continue to talk to my friends. im pretty sure that this horrible attention span stems from adhd but i haven't been properly diagnosed yet. due to.. my mom just assuming im lazy.. well like yah i am lol im not gonna deny that, it just sucks that im desperately trying to pull myself together to have a chance of a future and it would be really awesome if i could just be normal and sit down and focus on something that has 'big' words and not have to reread bc it wont get in my stupid pea sized brain. idk im not blaming her, i just dont think ive been able to get across how i actually feel and work to her, without her just thinking im lazy asf and glued to my phone. ive obvs tried to make change and DO SOMETHING?? like im not just wallowing into myself, but most of the time i just find myself staring at my computer sucked into my head.

how to pay attention, no glue no borax.

except i lwk alr tried everything and its kinda hard if you alr gave up years ago.

also dont ask how i wrote all this i have no clue bruh