WHYYYYYY (TW: SH) (long rant/vent)

I HAVE WROTE THIS THREE FUCKING TIMES NOW ISTG IF IT DOESNT WORK 

ok. my sister asked to go to the park right next to my house, my mom said yes. we walked there but after a bit we went into the library to check the time (since my mom took my phone) and then we go distracted since the library is a fun place. we still had time, and the library is like ten feet from the park so, we stayed. but then we lost track of time and left the library five minutes after our curfew (so horrible i know) and I GUESS my mom was driving around looking for us and saw us walking home and picked us up and drove us home while YELLING about how we didn't ask to be at the library, i understand that. but i don't understand how she claims to have come and looked around the library and didn't see us so with her logic that mean there is NO WAY we could have been there. even though we were there the whole time she was looking for us and so when we got home, she took the TV remote, made us clean the house and then called my grandma since i was supposed to go there next week and told them everything I've done wrong in the last, like, year to "show me how disappointed they'd be" she told them that i "can't be trusted because i lie about everything" and that I'm a "hoe bag stoner that can't be left alone" (i was smoking for like two weeks so i didn't want to kill myself but okay) and she said that i was an infant and should be treated as such. since she practically humiliated me and made me feel like shit about myself by spouting straight-up lies to my favorite person in the world, i was considering self-harm again (i was clean for like a year :/) and i did... only one cut though because it was a new blade that was far sharper than i planed for (I'm okay it just scared me) so now I'm super angry at my mom and myself and i really don't want to go home after school today :( but i have to. sorry for ranting the whole thing just pissed me off