Conflicting Lives

I was thinking about start a YouTube channel, but I paused. This is just another side project, another distraction. Yes, I would gain skills but it's not the skills I'm currently trying to obtain.

I have an end goal for my life, but I've only just started taking steps toward it. I'd want to work at and retire from CERN labs. I've wanted this for almost a decade, but the most recent thing I've done to get there is doing an hour of my Comptia courses a day (an IT certification course). I'm not even close and I'm 25. I should be disappointed in myself, however I find life to be good regardless.

I have a wonderful girlfriend, I have a well paying job I enjoy, and a cozy apartment for the two of us and my cat. Friends online are plentiful, and I still talk to most of my family on a regular basis. By all accounts, life is good and nothing is stopping me from going after what I want (save for the freezing weather sometimes). 

So I get wrapped up in learning things I'm naturally drawn to. Repairs of any and all things, HTML & CSS, training my discipline (I've started reading books and SCPs again for fun). And I see inventors in my YouTube feed that inspire me to try my hand at 3D printing and building when I get the opportunity. All of this is fun and exciting but is it what I REALLY want? Or is it just more distractions?

It's hard to say. Do y'all struggle with thoughts like this too?