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why am i so scared to go out there? why am i so scared to look for oportunities or to reach for the ones that are right in front of me? am i scared of trying and failing, and worst of all, being perceived when i do so?
i am not a child. i don't need extra protection nor anyone else to look after me. but why do i feel i need it? why do i feel so disarmed and unprotected when i go out and have to interact with those who appear to have everything under control?
this constant fear shows up unnanounced. when the desire to do something with my life arises, when the motivation is there... fear paralyzes me, makes me doubt, fills me with anguish.
i hate it.
i want to master fear. i want to end it.
no, better yet. i want fear to persist, but watch me do everything anyway.
even when i feel it tangling around my ribs and tightening around my chest. i want to fight against fear. i want to move forward despite it.
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Sad.exe
I see what you're dealing with since I do have experienced with something similar and can say I still have it lingering somewhere inside me all of the time..
There is no point in letting fear hold your hand back or your feet dug or your lips shut every time you want to go forward and there is no such thing in life as so called folks who "Have everything under control/figured out" because they all either 1. holding everything with a mere tape waiting to lose it's sticking effect at any moment. 2. Have came from the same place that you are in and they are just able to get moving towards what they want..
after all you will get to where you want to be eventually, the only difference is how soon are gonna start moving? the only thing that kinda worked for me when dealing with this fear is to just accept reality as as and get over with what I need to get done, and I believe that should serve well as a mindset for you too.
It's a hostile world out there but there's no point in holding back otherwise we might as well weep and roll on the floor while waiting for the inevitable which I don't think is very fun is it?
your first and most important step in anything you want in life is to do the first move and let the process accompany you because doing what you need to do is one hell of a motive on it's own and I know you can achieve that. I believe in you so let the fear be part of what you show to the world through your efforts and get to it!
If you wish to DM or have a convo about similar topics I'll be available and have a good day.
hi there! thank you for your words, i really appreciate hearing (well, reading) experiences from someone going through/who went through something similar.
the world is hostile, but it's true that you have to keep going despite that. i hope i can do the same as you. have a nice day! 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯
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I am very glad you have found my comment to be interesting for you and hopefully helpful in any way, Good day!
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