i genuenly cant make shi (rant ig)

im genuenly struggeling at this point in making music i have NO motivation etc i havent made a song in over a year and i genuenly wanna do shit with it i wanna make music and get big i can make lyrics and sing but i cant make beats and wtv and i genuenly wish i had someone to collab with or a stdio but im dirt poor turning 15 this year and i genuenly want to do somthing with my life with music like im genuenly gonna die if i cant like i feel like i have no future i want to do music if anyone can help pleasse do i live in norway close to the capital genuenly i know this sounds dumb asf but still gang i havent used spacehey in a while but im back so yeah thanks for reading of wtv