School n relationships

HELLO SO i'm in a new school And surprisingly, I managed to talk to people 

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Sooo It's the first day of classes and already spoke with people, even though the only two people I'm friends with here are the predetermined ones.

But It feels like cheating because there's a girl I know who was in my school and transferred with me to this one. There's another girl from the same school, but I didn't have any serious interaction with her. and I don't think I had any other significant interaction with her besides "What time is it?" BUUUUT  I'll take it because For me, talking to new people is really weird.

I also don't know how to act in a normal person-to-person relationship, face-to-face, only screen-to-screen, and I barely even know what to do Even in THAT case but ok.

I felt autistic, yes, but also that at least I could be more than an anxious mess. 

I'm telling you this as someone who searches specifically for "how to talk", "how to start a conversation" and similar topics; one of them is "HOW TO WALK". I felt like I was going to cry just because someone told me «nice Pierrot pin» IT WASN'T IN MY PLANNING FOR ANYONE TO TELL ME ANYTHING, I was simply mentally prepared for all the tutorials I watched, not for a casual interaction. I mean, I don't think I can even stick to a single topic while I'm writing this. 

Maybe I'll have a stroke from talking to someone 

Okay, but after having some orientation activities for the new students, I head towards the school bus and in a WOW way, although maybe not so wow knowing that I'm on a winning streak; I'm playing Roblox with a girl. I SWEAR I DIDN'T SELL MY SOUL TO THE DEVIL I still can't wrap my head around how I could have had so much interaction with people technically only existing.

Then I got home and collapsed into bed; it's all too much for me. But it felt like I was one of those people who enjoy life. I'm afraid it's going to end now.

I usually hang out with people because I don't want to be alone, and even then I still feel lonely, you know?  So it's strange to me that even though I had 30 heart attacks, Did I feel calmer? I still had some anxiety and all that during the conversations (LoL) But then I started thinking :

Is this what it feels like to be and be treated like a normal person on the first attempt ?