first entry just so happens to be something i will turn into a song

yesterday left me feeling manipulated and bested

so today, i decided that i'm distraught 

i truly don't know i have peace until theres no more left

i really want an electric guitar so ill go search for one 

and i'm going to pilates for the second time ever today because when i went last time i felt a surge of relief and contentment 

so i decided that maybe its good to exercise

i feel like i spend so much of my time feeling okay and fine

that when im not 

i cant sit with myself

haven't been able to do much work today

to feel yourself change is very much a sudden experience

and to realize the changes that need making is even more surreal