ew (vent)

apartment searching is so freaking hard i hate it so much ;~; like i dont even know what i'm looking for and dont have the help to find a good place to live. but my mom is saying that if i dont go to college i have to get out and i dont have a single thing prepared, nor do i know where i should go.

none of the colleges ive looked at have given a single response on if ive gotten accepted or not, which one of them i applied to like 2-3 months ago, and my anxiety is just on an all time high. like i'd be fine not going to college, genuinely, but with how things are looking rn and how i am constantly inconveniencing my family, its just too much ://

i wish i had the ability to just have the money i need and leave, genuinely.